okay so despite what my last post was i have been feeling much better i dropped ap euro and my mom was rly mad about it... Me and my boyfriend (i love him to death) recently saw each other after he has been grounded sense July. As for my suicidal thoughts they still happen from time to time but only under great amount of stress or when i feel like i lost control.. i have considered looking for help but i feel like i have no way of getting it even when i have told my mom i wanted to commit suicide before she wood just ignore me and think i have a negative attitude and i need to stop being how i am..