Alright, so I've never written a blog before, ever. However, I just got the urge to because I have a lot on my mind that probably none of you care about but...thats not the point.
So its May. About to be June, and I graduate HS in about 2.5 weeks. I'm going to college in the Fall, to VT. This sounds like the time of my life right? Wrong. I am going five hours away from where I live, where I know NO ONE. My brother is going away to Texas for basic training in two weeks, which means he'll miss my graduation. I'm leaving all of my friends and family behind and honestly I'm scared out of my mind. I know I sound like a puss, but can you blame me? On one hand I'm glad I'm going to college, but I also don't want to be in a city where I don't know ONE person. My family can't even afford it, half of my tuition is payed by loans and grants, half of which i have to pay back. Which will leave me in debt for up to ten years. The other half, approx $10,000 I don't even know where that's coming from. I mean it's like we go to college just to get a good job JUST to pay back the massive heap of debt from just going to college! Really? I mean honestly, does college have to cost that much!? This sucks. I feel like life is just one big pile of crap from here on out. My life has began to be sooo busy, with school and scholarships and filling out 1000 forms for college, and jobs, and trying to keep up a social life, this shit should be illegal! Maybe I just need school to be over and I can finally take a deep breath. But damn! All this stress is driving me up a wall. I even have dreams about killing people!!! Scary man. Anyway.......i doubt anyone read all that. But I got bigger problems... Thanks! With love - Kat