Well I've been seeing a lot of screwed up things lately and its all relating to the people i once knew as good and respectible people. A lot have started using drugs, drinking, many are no longer virgins. That isn't the bad thing though. Yeah, yeah, drugs and alcohol and sex aren't bad. I've heard it all a million damn times. I really don't care how they came to be that way or why they continue to be that way its just I don't understand why?! For instance a girl I once knew was a total prude. Meaning she hated drugs, alcohol and sex. She thought they were "ewwwwww", in her words. She gets a boyfriend that I also have known for quite some time and within 5 months of dating him she loves drinking and has sex with him more then a goddamn rabbit does. Don't get me wrong I don't care if they're having sex but what i do care about it her being a whore and doing it while drunk, using no protection, on a couch, in front of an entire party of people. I don't get how someone can just switch channels like that in three seconds. it's really depressing when thats all I see now. I don't remember the last time when I got in contact with an old friend and actually liked what I heard. Change is a good thing but I can't see how it can be with these people.
I visited my old middle school a few days ago and I loved it! I missed my old teacher and it was nice talking to them and everything. Then they asked me how the rest of my graduating class is doing. Well I wasn't going to kill they're hopes and dreams by saying they're all doing horrible now and turning into shitty people. So i just sucked it up and told them that they were all fine and doing great. You should have seen how happy they were to hear that! I only wish it was true.
If they turned out so awful why didn't I? I had the same questions asked of me that they had asked of them. We just both had different answers. I really hope they stop all this stupid crap. I can't help but miss the old times of hanging out with the people I once knew. I know it'll never be the same but I can't help but wonder what it could have been if they didn't make the choices they did.