In 2005, 36 year old teacher Colleen McGraham, wrote these entries about a 15 year old student. She was originally suspended for 90 days, the case has recently been brought back up as some want her fired.  Note: They never had sex (apparently she was ugly).

"Why do the tears always come? My feelings for him are so strong and I can't say or do anything".

"Today at one point he was standing behind me so close I could feel the heat from his body radiate to me. I wanted to just let myself go, lean backwards and sink into him .:

"I feel powerless to stop ..."

"Sometimes I am feeling so much, and missing him so much, I feel like I can't breathe ."

"I hate you. I hate that you make me feel like this ..."

"You are killing me ..."

"Why, why, why won't my heart give up? My head tells me I have to let it go. It is destroying me."

"I don't know what is going to happen to me. It hurts so much."

"Today my thoughts were of a salacious nature, I can't wait to see him, but I also feel nervous. How will we be with each other?"

"My heart refuses to let go."