Addicted to Killing.
Others have not been so lucky, especially the American soldier who has served time overseas. I read a story about Charles Whittington who did kill some some enemy combatants and how he became addicted to killing people. People get addicted to all kinds of crazy behaviors that are well known to be horribly bad for you, so why not killing? His motivation was to kill people who he viewed as a threat to his country or his personal being. Mr. Whittington returned to the USA and wrote an essay about his addiction in a state college. His professor gave him an A and requested he post it in the College paper.
The administration became concerned, banned him from college until he received a psychological evaluation as a precaution to the possibility he would try to harm people at the college. Seems reasonable as long as it is done quickly and doesn't impede his school year. My question is why doesn't the military do this type of assessment in the first place?
Personally, I think he has things under control based on his candid essay, but I am no psychologist. Here is his essay, what are your thought about this situation?
Veteran's essay on killing By Charles Whittington
November 21, 2010
The following is the essay that Iraq war veteran Charles Whittington wrote for his English class at the Community College of Baltimore County. It was published in the campus newspaper Oct. 26:
War is a drug. When soldiers enter the military from day one, they begin to train and are brain washed to fight and to handle situations in battle. We train and train for combat, and then when we actually go to war, it is reality and worse than what we have trained for. We suffer through different kinds of situations. The Army never taught how to deal with our stress and addictions.
War is a drug because when soldiers are in the Infantry, like me, they get used to everything, and fast. I got used to killing and after a while it became something I really had to do. Killing becomes a drug, and it is really addictive. I had a really hard time with this problem when I returned to the United States, because turning this addiction off was impossible. It is not like I have a switch I can just turn off. To this day, I still feel the addictions running through my blood and throughout my body, but now I know how to keep myself composed and keep order in myself, my mind. War does things to me that are so hard to explain to someone that does not go through everything that I went through. That's part of the reason why I want to go back to war so badly, because of this addiction.
Over in Iraq and Afghanistan killing becomes a habit, a way of life, a drug to me and to other soldiers like me who need to feel like we can survive off of it. It is something that I do not just want, but something I really need so I can feel like myself. Killing a man and looking into his eyes, I see his soul draining from his body; I am taking away his life for the harm he has caused me, my family, my country.
Killing is a drug to me and has been ever since the first time I have killed someone. At first, it was weird and felt wrong, but by the time of the third and fourth killing it feels so natural. It feels like I could do this for the rest of my life and it makes me happy.
There are several addictions in war, but this one is mine. This is what I was trained to do and now I cannot get rid of it; it will be with me for the rest of my life and hurts me that I cannot go back to war and kill again, because I would love too. When I stick my blade through his stomach or his ribs or slice his throat it's a feeling that I cannot explain, but feels so good to me, and I become addicted to seeing and acting out this act of hate, and violence against the rag heads that hurt our country. Terrorists will have nowhere to hide because there are hundreds of thousands of soldiers like me who feel like me and want their revenge as well.
Update:Whittingtons last VA report, which he obtained Dec. 9 and shared with The Baltimore Sun, describes him as cooperative, pleasant, realistic and goal-oriented. It says he suffers from depression, inability to sleep and post-traumatic stress disorder, but shows no signs of suicidal or homicidal ideation. However, the college wants a new psychological analysis of him and wont accept this one. Have you ever tried to book a psychologist while not being a person of means? I have for my son, it took over one year, and he was suicidal.