It just happened again. Someone I know died. She was a good friend to my in laws. I always liked her even though she was very preachy and politically we were oil and water. 

Less than a month ago she was given six to 20 months. And today she died. I really wanted to talk to her before she left. I thought I had plenty of time.

 It seems to be bothering me more than anyone else. I guess I've watch to many  TV shows and movies but It just all seems so anticlimactic. They're here, they're gone. No real drama, No closure, no sense of something being wrapped up and compete.

It all makes me doubt the value of emotions. They always seem to mislead you or motivate you in the wrong direction.

I know this doesn't make a lot of sense, but that's where I'm at right now.