now that i have the man i love ..I was remembering one of this days that on  jan 2010  my son left 4 the weekend w/ his dad.. i was feeling a lil sad cuz i'm w him everyday..

so i thoughed this weekend wil be perfect to be w/ sum one go get something to eat,, sum drinks maybe dance and come home and cuddle till sunday b4 my son gets home.

.so I GOT AN IDEAL ..i will get a significant other .. to do that..

cuz i don't like the term bootty call i'm 35 always been in commited relationships.

.in other words i'm used to be DA' CATHEDRAL ,,so to settle to be a bootty call is like i'm lowering my self to be called a church.. i am CATHEDRAL MATERIAL..all of US ARE CATHEDRAL MATERIAL!  BUT WE JUST SETTLE 4 LESS THAN WE DESERVE..HERE I'M NOT TALKING BOUT materialistic sh*t ..or looks..or just sex.. i mean we all deserve the whole package type of person to share our lives with that's all !! ;-). 

SO I WENT ON A 2 WEEK QUEST.. GOING ON A FEW DATES W/ VERY NICE MEN..FROM 41 .39.29.EVEN 27/..

TO SEE WUT WE HAD IN COMMUN TO SHARE SUM TIME W/ EACHOTHER.. i had many things in commun with all of them maybe because i was raised w 4 brothers so i'm like a dude.in a easy going..laid back..chill part .loL.

THEY WERE SMART, FUNNY.DOWN TO EARTH, SEXY,KIND,LIL AGGGRESIVE in a good way.

.BUT MOST OF THEM HAD 1 thing in commun..THEY WORRIED SO MUCH BOUT THE TITTLES  LIKE BF.. SEEING EACHOTHER..OF FRIENDS W BENNEFITS.. WITH ME ..

i dislike tittles very much..cuz 2 grown ups that enjoy spending time w/ each other and get along great ..why u need a tittle 4 dat?i think time and good treatment will tell ;)..

 well if we talking bout when sex is involved u just make it clear it will be a commited sexual relationship..

just to respect ur own sef..lcuz when u sleep around u not disrspecting no one else BUT YOU..

love ur gemes or jewels lol  and treat them well ..

plus ADVICE IF ur not happy in that sex dept why even stay there.. if u can have the whole package somewhere else?

well some of this men WONDERFUL men wanted to put l rules .. but..

I THINK WHEN SOMEONE IS MATTURE ENOUGH ..U DON'T NEED RULES cuz we already know wuzup!.

.but here are some funny interesting rules sum of them told me ..

1- i need u passwords.. e.mail..face book..yahoo.g.mail.skype..etc..

2- u cannot chat w/ no one else

3- u have 2 stop being on fb so much

4- no more sexy pics

well the list goes on and onnnnnnn..

.. ohh and sum of them told me not to have my laptop when ever they are around.. WTF?

SOME OF THEM KNEW I loveeeeeeeeeeeee TO STAY HOME..i told them u guyz can go out with ur buddies.. but i wont goout  all the time..i rather stay home and wait 4 u i love my bed and yes i am addicted to the net google..u tube //face book that's no secret LMAO FML..

BUT.. sum of them answer OH WELL IF WE 2GETHER U LIFE STYLE HAS TO CHANGE CUZ I like to be outdoors all the time..etc..etc..etc..

I WAS  LIKE WHY???

I WANT SUMONE TO COMPLEMENT ME AND VICE VERSA ,,not to be an I ROBOT CLONE AND DO WUT EVER MY PARTER DOES ..WTH>> ANY WAY I GUESS I BEEN SINGLE TOO LONG AND I LOVE IT..

CUZ I SAID AFTER MY LAST LONG RELATIONSHIP I WILL RATHER CHOOSE TRANQUILITY OVER LOVE ANYTIME..

yes i know it sound cold..but analize this LOVE W. NO TRANQUILITY who needs that..it's sick/ SUM PPLE STAY IN SICK RELATIONSHIPS JUST TO BE in a relationship..

SOOO I GUESS I'LL BE FEELING A LIL LONELY SUM WEEKENDS but at least i'll have trankility..peace of mind and my precious FREEDOM... to go out anytime i please..

WICH IS NOT  OFTEN AND HAVE NO ONE BITCHING ME ABOUT WUT TIME I GOT HOME AND WHY DID I TOOKED THAT LONG.. gezzzz ..WHY DISTRUST SUMONE WHO HAS NEVER GAVE U A REASON TO"??

WITH me the best relationship will be like  living w a Cool roomate..who u get to have sex once in a while NO DRAMA..and that u can't wait to get home 2 see them cuz they are just that cool to be around..

but when all this rules..demands start even b4 i start dating a dude.

my will to have a SIGNIFICANT OTHER VANISHES asap! ;(

and just remind my self i am not by byself i am WITH MY SELF ..and i'm happy w/ that.. and in the cuddle dept i guess i will settle w/ my cyber bf and visiting once in  while to get sum loving ;-) ...so as i put on my last 3 status below;;>

13 + 3+ 3= 19YEARS = 3 long relationships.married..engaged

 and live in bf..so i guess i already PAY MY DUES in relationship matters.. now i don't see MY SELF TELLING PPLE WHERE AM I GOIN.,WHY I'M ON MY LAPTOP.,WHY I DIDN'T CALL., WHY AM I WEARING THAT.,TO MANY WHY'S.I'M TOO LAZY TO REPLY TO ANY OF THOSE-CUZ MY ONLY ANSWER WILL BE THE SAME ONE-->WHY?? :

CUZ I CAN ,I WANTED TO AND I'M NOT AFRAID ;-).....

SO THIS IS THE CONCLUSION-UPDATE FROM MY 2 WEEK DATING QUEST-->

 i'm updating my relationship status from SINGLE 2 STAYING SINGLE >;-) ..

i'm just gonna seat and wait..let destiny throw that special sumone who's kool as sh*t to have a chill..fun..loving..crazy,,honest,,kind ..amazing..relationship! 

update NOW OCT/2011 -> . ;-) i been blessed with my whole package kind of man IT WAS WORTH THE WAIT )