The End of the Beginning
We all try to plan our lives
But our paths are formed from the tiniest surprise
In their favorite orchard, she told him the news
At first he was shocked, and could not talk, or move
But then a smile broke out on his lips
He pulled her close, and gave her a kiss
Jacob always knew he would be a father
The news didnt upset him, or make him all bothered
He said, I cannot believe,
this is happening.
Wherever we go, and whatever we do,
Were together forever and Ill always be true.
They would be married, they quickly decided
They had a ceremony, which his small wages provided.
They got married sooner, than he wouldve liked.
He couldn't afford, the best doctor that night.
The baby was coming way too soon
He paced and he prayed, while in the next room.
His whole body shivered, as he heard her screams
Every night after, it would haunt his dreams
It was unbearable as he watched the clock.
But the worst sound overall, was when it all stopped.
The doc was unable to save his wife.
While bleeding so badly, she lost her life
The baby was also too small to survive.
He held his little girl, in his arms
When she died.
No-one can know the over-whelming grief
His pain, and his shame simply wouldnt cease.
His mother and father tried to give him relief
But he blamed himself, they could not change this belief
Is there a God? Then, why so much pain?
Ive seen it, and lived it, again and again
Is there a plan? What is our future?
A wound thats eternal,
That you cant sew or suture
Over and over, he thought of his mistakes
As he sat through her funeral,
And attended their wakes
Trying to decide, why the Lord had to take,
It seemed, not even the innocent were safe.
Trying to find a reason to live,
His wandering soul came upon Broken-heart bridge.
At odds with his god, and filled with hate,
He ultimately got angry, and threw away his faith.
If he couldnt have his wife or his daughter,
His soul would be received, by the dark and chilly water.
Somehow he remembered, his wedding in December,
When he gave his wife his pledge
But when she died, his heart had no guide
He was pushed too close to the edge.
Finding her loss was too high a cost,
He leapt off of the ledge.
He found as he broke the waters surface,
His heart didnt feel, uneasy or nervous.
With no-one by his side, and nothing to thank,
Jacob succumbed to his sadness, and quietly sank
Sometimes in our lives, when in the midst of a storm,
Salvation can come, in many forms
We are drug down, by our pain and our fear,
And the direction to go, is never quite clear
Hope has wings, and bears all things,
And in this case, it floats
Old man McGee, was a man of the sea,
And he pulled Jacob into his boat
are you okay? he yelled through the rain,
Patting him on his back.
McGee rowed home,
With Jacob soaked to the bone,
And they both went into his shack
Wild with fever, water in his lungs,
Jacob ranted and raved, with a loose tongue.
Old man McGee learned what he had done
And his wife recalled, where he came from
The wife sat down by Jacobs side
And tearfully told him how her brothers died.
They had both been young, and smart, and strong.
But the cholera came, and they didnt last long.
Here one day, and then they were gone,
The sickness also claimed, her best friend and her mom.
She explained the reason she confided in him:
Life is short, and could be gone on a whim.
The strength to survive must come from within.
And to give up the gift, of life is a sin.
And then she left him to his thoughts,
Which at this point, he had quite a lot.
With his inner demons, he wrestled and fought
Jacob searched what he felt, and had been taught.
And as he rested, and healed where he lay,
He began to question why he had been saved.
He had tried to throw it all away,
So why was he here, still living today?
Jacob finally arose from the bed,
There was a shortness in his breath
And a pounding in his head.
But when he thought of the alternative,
At least he was not dead.
He quietly came down the stairs
And for a brief moment was really quite scared.
He had told them so much,
And was quite aware,
He was still a stranger
And did not belong there.
But they welcomed him
As one of their own
And after eating their breakfast,
Mcgee took Jacob home.
As Mcgee slowly made,
His way through the waves,
Jacob quietly marveled
At the beauty of the day.
I dont hardly know ye,
Old McGee began to say,
But I can tell in your eye,
And the way that you sigh,
Youve seemed tove lost your way.
I cannot pretend to know your pain,
But I know its enough,
To drive you insane.
But as much as it hurts to lose your lover,
If you killed yourself, youd hurt countless others.
Be strong, and be true,
And seek others advice,
Youve been given a gift,
That wont happen twice.
McGee waved to Jacob
As he pushed off from the shore.
With nowhere to go,
He went to his parents door.
Now Jacob admitted he wasnt too close to the town,
But they took care of their own,
Especially when down.
There were so man offerings,
Their table was filled,
Even a small collection,
To help pay his bills.
Along with some letters,
From various guilds.
Invitations to employment,
And training in skills.
It moved Jacobs heart,
From the depths where it lay,
In more ways then one,
He knew hed been saved.
All he could do was try,
Each and every darkened day.
And every time hed know they cared,
Through generous displays
Old man McGee and he
Became the best of friends
And through this sad time,
He began to find,
The hole in his soul
Sometimes in our lives,
were hurt and deprived,
And life becomes a test,
Of your will to survive
These battles weve fought,
Can be lost or won
And when everything comes,
unraveled and undone
Know if one life ends,
Another has begun