One of the worst days i've had in my life.

My father has been a retired veteran in the Military as a Marine for years now. As i applied for college this summer a women from the Veteran's Administration in the college told me i was eligible for a scholarship due to the fact that my dad is 100% disabled. She then goes on to tell me that i would receive 881 dollars a month for 45 months. Finally! A great moment in my life that actually makes a difference.

I spent the whole summer trying to do anything and everything possible to get proper documentations to obtain this blessing that god has granted me. 

I go to a local courthouse to meet a women named Brenda who was trying to help and she sends the documents to an office where we had to wait for 3 weeks of total agonizing impatience.

Two days ago i get a letter in the mail. I open it up, Dear XXXXXXXXX we have reviewed you application and have granted you the scholarship. 

....YES!!! THANK YOU GOD!!!

Today I was in my room playing gh3 and my dad calls me into the kitchen.

"xxxxxxxx, There's been a mistake. You won't be getting the scholarship" My dad had to be in a combat zone during duty.      HE IS 100% DISABLE !!! GIVE MY FAMILY A FUCKING BREAK!!!

For the first time in my life, i can honestly say i went psychotic. I went outside with no words and destroyed everything i could get my hands on. My pear tree is now only a tree with pulp on the ground.

At this time, i start to become lethargic. I start rambling on about who I'm going to kill. I even stoop so low as to blaming god.

I had the a blessing in my hand for two days, and they take it away fro me.

I don't know what i will do now.