... Naked and wearing nothing but cheez whiz and a smile.

All joking aside, I'm actually in a committed relationship with a guy who I've been with for over 3 yrs now. He's a member on this site too. Bonus points if you figure out who he is! (Bonus points towards what, you may be wondering. That's a good question; I'll get back to you on it.)

I'm not going to go into my personal life, for now anyway. The day to day has just become a blur. I suppose it's from the stress of spending the last four years in a job that offers nothing satisfying to the soul, that continuously makes me regret even getting up in the morning. I'm not even 23 and i feel like i've skipped my youth and become some 45 year old workaholic with nothing more to show than a couple of feral cats. Everything in my life has become mundane, my relationships, my interests, my hobbies and habits. I don't enjoy waking up and feeling bland. My significant other and I have worked soooo damned hard for everything we have, and it doesn't help that this shit economy has ruined much of what we've built, but at what point do you just actually give up? I've felt like I'm beyond my breaking point, time and time again.

(Sigh,) I suppose it's just been a tougher year than I planned on. Heh, as if any of us "plan" our fate. I want so many things in life... I enjoy modeling, and wish I had the time to spare to get back into it. I wish I had more time to focus on painting, or the money to go back to school. I wake up, I go to work, I come home and grumble, and I go to sleep.

What a great way to introduce myself, huh? An emo blog from a pessismist soul. I'm sure you're all thinking to yourself "What a loser, why doesn't she do us a favor and kill herself already?" The answer? Because I tell funny jokes from time to time.

Why did helen keller use one hand to masturbate? So she could use the other to moan.

Why couldn't helen keller drive? Because she was a woman.

Enjoy your weekend, kids and pervs.