i kind of missed this. been gone for awhile. got a bit busy with life and had to shuck this......luxury. my thoughts building up like great big piles of shit in the corners of my mind and finally i brought myself to come get a mental colonic. i missed some of yall. others, not so much. how has everyone been? i have simplified my life in some aspects and complicated it in others. and as life sometimes tends to do, i have been through some painful moment since we last spoke. my idol,  the man who which i modeled my life to be like died. my father was 75 years old and died in my house, upstairs in his room from a massive heart attack. the ideal man, was never sick, never in too much pain. my mother discovered him. he had started to sleep in alot so she didnt think anything of it when he still wasnt up at 10 am. i miss him. he has been dead a year and i think of him everyday. EVERYDAY. EVERYDAY. it is really hard without him. i can never be the man he was, he was great  and ... Read more ...

ohhhh man!!! today it finally clicked for me. i'm in central Texas (around Austin to exact) and it was like in the mid 30s today! in DECEMBER!!! just proved that fucking global warming shit COMPLETELY WRONG!!! BOOM! IN YO FACE ELEITIST LIBERAL SOCIALIST SCUM DEMOCRATS!!! a cold day in DECEMBER will always trump a decades worth of data gathered by people who have dedicated their lives to researching the earths weather patterns and humans effect on it.

fuck all those "scientist" and their "data". it's all a global conspiracy, involving thousands of people, to cause us all to buy electric cars and solar powered vibrators. trust me, i read it on the internet so it has to be TRUTH.

satilite pictures of the north and south poles by NASA showing less and less ice coverage over a decade and water tempatures gradually increasing over time? all doctored. all LIES. ALL BULLSHIT.

the dude that comes on tv and tells me the forecast for the next 5 days knows whats up. if there was any evidence of gl ... Read more ...

i feel like waxing philisophical so bear with me you fucking failed abortions.

why do we all seem to be drawn here? what is it about this place that makes us feel at home? why do i consider you assholes to be worth my time?

for me, it's the verbal sparring with guys like Bo, Thaddeus, Rollo, Tomlet that keep me coming back. but also the fact that we can have a GROWN UP ADULT CONVERSATION without (much) name calling.

the mutual respect we seem to have for eachother and our differing opinions seems to be a lost treasure in todays society. respect for one another in this country is nearly non-exsistent. here, though, on afuckin degenerate website, we seem to be able to handle ourselves like civilized humans.

 

i often wonder where i am going in life, what my purpose is if there is any, when i will die, and who will even remember me whaen i am gone. have i made my mark? what have i contributed to the human race? is this, what i am now, all i am and will be? i know i'm bummin ... Read more ...

life has been kinda boring for me lately. i havent posted a blog in a while mainly because i havent had anything remotly interesting happen in my life, so i decided that the most humanitarian way to deal with it was to not bore other people with my non-interesting shit (some of you assholes should take note....i'm looking at you, wallboy).

 

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i'll be 30 on the 17th. when i was 23 i had the most certain feeling that i was going to be dead by my 25th birthday. dont know why, dont know how, but i just knew so to me everyday past my 25th b-day has tere an extra day. just one more day i shouldnt have had.

rumor is my unit will  be deploying to Afghanistan sometime in the next year. thats really gonna fuck up my college education.especially if i get killed.

 

 

 

why does this sound like a suicide note?

 

ever want  to shoot someone  just to do it? i want to, but i dont think i would react in an appropreat manner.like i might yell "t ... Read more ...

i have reached the beginning of the pinnicle of uselessness. i went from enoob to user yesterday. i celebrated by throwing up in my own mouth and then watched Beaches on tv. then i threw up in my own mouth again.

 

hello, everyone, my name is AWFULJACKASS and i am a user. i have been a user for about a year now. i used before, but it was only occasional useage. like at parties or when i was bored. then one day i decided to become a full time user and opened an account with the dealer ebaum. of all the things i liked to indulge myself with , the new blog section really hit the spot. it took me to another level that commenting on the feture page just couldn't reach. you mean i get a WHOLE FUCKING PAGE TO RANT AND SPEW MY FILTH ON?!?!?!?!? from then on i was hooked.

 

i also have been known to use the blog section as my own little fountain of inspiration as i am about to do right...........................NOW!

 

i need help guys. i need a topic for my persuasive essay ... Read more ...