Personal Essay: Falthor Longhand

  Its interesting how the world reveals itself to those who are in it.  Theres a construction worker who is hard at work hammering away at the cement sidewalk with his jackhammer, there is the teacher standing at his pulpit leaning down over his students as he decrees his mind to them.  Then There is the writer, The writer who sits at the keyboard and types himself into perfect oblivion, if only for a short time.  Through his characters and stories the writer transports all of himself through to another world in which his is the character or vice versa, the doorway is there for anyone to use, it stands open, and inviting.  Anyone can enter, if they have the determination to try hard, and the will to step through into the world of the imagined.

  A game on the internet, a required persona to be created, and the birth of a new life.  < ... Read more ...

  Do you know that feeling?  You know...  That feeling you get when you know you've had a good workout.

  You're not sore, but tired.  Youre not tight yet, the muscle is actually loose and a little unresponsive.  You're not cramping, and you just have that hyper awareness about yourself.  You know what it is you've been doing, and everything looks better.

  I've missed that feeling a lot.  6 months due to the afore mentioned stray needle incident (see my last blog) that I couldn't return to Wrestling school and get a good workout, and seeing that money was the way it was I didn't have a gym membership anymore even if I could have found the time to get there.  Right now I can feel that lax looseness in my shoulders and Chest, and I know that I'm in trouble because tomorrow I will likely get the tight ripping pain that comes with a really truly good workout, and I have a transport truck to help upload tomorrow.

  So be it.  It was more then worth it. 

  This whole 6 months I've be ... Read more ...

  Okay I know you guys pretty much all know I work in Windows and Doors for the local re-seller of Andersen Windows and doors.  Ive worked almost my entire work history and career in Retail, for whatever reason Im actually very good at dealing with people and helping them out, even if I hate every second of it usually.

  One of my biggest pet peeves is people who dont listen to you when you tell them something.  God knows its my job to make sure you get the message, but if you come in and say, order and window, and we tell you it should be in around the 15th of April well call you when it gets here, I think that sends a pretty straight forward message dont you?

  It means that your window will be here, at the earliest on the 15th of April.  If not I will likely call you on the 15th to tell you that your window is not here, and that I will be in touch when it comes in.  Once again I would assume tha ... Read more ...

Judo Ontario telling me that I needed to stop practicing Judo came as no surprise to me. The fact that they tried to play it off like I never renewed my membership license or the school itself was a slap in the face from a governing body out to protect itself. I got in touch with them as quick as I could, it took well over a month to finally get to talk to or have Joe LeStrange return my phone call. After asking him about the letter he told me that it was a standardized letter they send out to anyone who hasn't renewed their membership, funny but parts of it were handwritten.

Joe told me the worse thing that I could hear at that point, because of legalities I was going to be stopped from competing, teaching, and even learning Judo until after this whole lawsuit was over to protect Judo Ontario from more lawsuits.

I need to state something here, the people who were involved in the lawsuit were; Chester Lam and family (the sue'ers), The university of Windsor (Cause it happened ... Read more ...

Alrighty... this is probably the part that sticks with me the most. Everything up to this point is a basic blur in my life I would say, with the finale coming after this all went down. The worse was yet to come, and of course a part of me knew that when I left the St Dennis Center that night, but another part hoped for a quick and painless end to this tragedy.

Now I know in the last post I made it sound like everything ended on that night in September, which isn't quite true, in some respects it just started there, but that was the thing that killed everything about Judo that I had loved.

I can remember going home that night and sitting in bed wondering what would happen to Chester. I know at least one person has posted that I shouldn't worry so much about this as Jeff and Chester were both adults, but I can't feel in some way that this was my fault as well. Deep down, on some level. Yeah I wasn't trained in the possible outcomes of legalities, I also never was given directi ... Read more ...