I'm a poetry writer this is one of my poems.

As darkness falls upon my house this evening there will be no sleep. Nothing but crying screaming and pain, love is not a good thing it is an evil thing in which it brings pain. Two souls fight because they both fucked up, they both made mistakes and can't decide on who to blame anymore. One is a drug addict rehab and relapser and deep down they know that whether they want their family to be their whether they want their life to to suddenly turn good; it won't they've caused too much pain to be trusted to be welcomed back with open arms. Instead the people they knew and thought loved them turn their backs and cross their arms and say "Fuck off." We all know that feeling right?

The other hard working, works to take away the pain works to keep an addiction from starting but what they don't realize is that they already are addicted to something, to drowning the pain away. So silent in the house after the two souls have gotten so horse they can hardly say a word without it cracking. I lay there still in my bed unable to move it seems time is frozen and the world has stopped rotating, in this one moment I Can hear a cricket chirp but it is broken by the slam of the door the squeeling of tires someone yelling at the car to leave and never fucking come back but we know they will they need us for some reason. The soul that stays makes their way upstairs and begins talking to me like nothing has happened I tell them to leave and I roll and stair at my ceiling counting grit marks.

I drift off into sleep and dream of a quiet peaceful house with loving people that welcome me, but I wake up to the sound of slamming doors and people yelling, the soul has returned once again a relapser in need of someone to take the guilt out on they stop by my room begin yelling frantically at me shaking me tellign me it's my fault the two souls don't love eachother don't have a need to care anymore. It isn't my fault though so I shrug it off and do the same thing I do every other time I push the soul out of my room out of my life and I block up again. I am all alone in this world and no one is here to help me up.