So I am feelin kinda down today. Last nite I couldnt sleep I had shooting pains throughout my body. I know it was due to stress.
I woke up around 5 am and couldnt sleep. As I lay there I decided to give myself a breast exam. I have this fear of getting cancer for the longest time.
I'm not quite sure why I am feeling down but I know that I have a pretty good idea and I;m just being delusional.
Its for many different reasons. I think some of those include but are not limted too:
- I dont know what to do about my first boyfriend ; my first love
- I am stressed about school. Grad school is a lot of fucking stress!
- I found out last week that my apt went down over $ 150, 000 in value since the fucking depression hit us!
- I am turning 25 in May and I want to fucking kill myself for that reason
- My dog is getting old and sick
- My parents are getting divorced
- My brothers girlfriend is a gold digger
- I found a tiny wrinkle on my face
- I lost a friend