I don't think I've told but one person here that I am an addict. Yes people, Druggie Deunan!!!

I have only been clean for six months. Before that my life was a hellish nightmare of lies, betrayal, use (of drugs and people), despicable acts and so on. You know....a druggie's life. It wasn't always that way. I went through rehab in 1991 and stayed clean for 15 years! The last few years were a living hell. Things are better now and I know why....because I'm not using! You may ask "what have you used Deunan?" EVERYTHING!!!!!!! AND LOTS OF IT!!!!!!!!

I know that if I use again my life will essentially be over but MY GOD the urge is FUCKING OVERWHELMING SOMETIMES!!!!! PLEASE MAKE IT STOP!!!!!!!PLEASE MAKE IT STOP!!!!!!!

 PLEASE MAKE IT STOP!!!!!!!PLEASE MAKE IT STOP!!!!!!! PLEASE MAKE IT STOP!!!!!!!

 PLEASE MAKE IT STOP!!!!!!!PLEASE MAKE IT STOP!!!!!!! 

PLEASE MAKE IT STOP!!!!!!!PLEASE MAKE IT STOP!!!!!!! PLEASE MAKE IT STOP!!!!!!!

 PLEASE MAKE IT STOP!!!!!!!PLEASE MAKE IT STOP!!!!!!! 

Crying Druggie Deunan