My sexual drought
After finishing up a business meeting on Wednesday afternoon, I was in a cab with some friends, and we starting talking about sex. As we were talking, I geared up the courage to tell them I am in the longest drought of my sexual career. They both asked how long it has been for me, and I told them five weeks. Both of them laughed, and said that wasn't that long a time period, but I explained to them that I haven't gone two consecutive weeks without sex since I was 19 years old.
What's even stranger is that for the most part, the reason that I haven't been with anyone is that I find myself turning down the easiest of sex. I have slept in bed with girls, hooked up with them at various levels, and had my chances, but yet closing the deal has not been a reality. There have been several occasions that I have had girls pretty much say "let's go home", and I have found myself finding something wrong, something that I am not attracted to, or just not being in the mood. I have also had situations where I have been ultra attracted to a woman, or even tried to go back to old favorites, and have not been able to close. I am constantly in the hottest clubs or venues (Set, Louis, LIV, 1Oak, G Lounge..etc..) in whatever city I'm in, and yet I am not making it happen.
It's
an amazing revelation because as we were sitting in the cab I started talking
aloud about what might be wrong. Is it that I am way too focused on my
career objective? Is my energy around women bad right now?
I also feel that when I'm out in a social setting, the girls that I'm not super attracted to (6's and 7's), the ones I used to find when I needed something casual with no strings attached (quick hits), are not appealing to me anymore. It feels like I am swinging for the home run instead of focusing on singles and doubles to drive in runs.
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