I've kind of known for a while.  But now that I have confirmation, it still hurts.  I never lied to my wife while we were married.  Not once.  Not about anything.  She's been lying to me for a while now.  She hasn't even told me yet. 

In the unlikely event that she's reading these blogs, I won't give her the satisfaction of how I know by writing it here.

I went back to school to get my teaching license when I was close to thirty.  I had some classes with a girl:guy ratio of 20:1 or more.  I had so many opportunities to cheat with nubile, shapely co-eds but didn't do it, not even once.  If I did, she would be the third person to know about it.

I just got out of the hospital tonight.  She's with him right now, partying down, having good times, while I'm shitting liver toxins and watching her kids.

I don't know what bothers me more, the dishonesty or the cheating.  Probably a combination of both.  I'm really bummed out right now.  What's worst is the bullshit reasons she gave for her wanting a divorce.  To put me through that kind of torture just so she could get strange dick is pretty terrible.  I'm not sure when it started, but it was surely before we started swinging.

I don't know what to say.  I don't know if I should confront her.  I don't know what to tell the kids.  I don't know what to do.  I can't beat anybody.  I'll lose my kids.  I'm already going to lose my house.

I'm just really bummed out.  I never thought I'd be betrayed and lied to like this.  At least I know I haven't been exposed to an STD with all the blood work that's been done on me.  I almost want to tell her that they did a second hepatitis test and I turned up positive for hep C. 

"But that's impossible.  Where could I possibly gotten an exposure to hep C?"

Just really bummed out.