SOO I had to drive him 2 school., the car was all full or this layer of ice and soo cold ., and suddenly it took me back in memory lane..
9 years ago when I was married I USED TO GET UP B4 MY HUSBY did and GO OUTSIDE TO clean the ice of the car and turn it on so it will be warm on his way 2 work.,
I will do this while I was making his breakfast and packing up his lunch to take 2 work., REAL LUNCH ( RICE,,SALAD,,MEAT AND STUFF ;) (not a sandwich)
rice that was cooked at 5am because it taste better then2 make it the night b4 ;)
little gestures like this 2 show him I cared .,but sadly I still ended up asking for a divorced after 13 years because I could not deal w/ his cold ways that ended up killing the LOVE I once had 4 him !!
I WAS wondering how many married pple do those lil things 4 each other this days and the other one never even says thx? and takes them 4 granted ;(
I ASKED THAT QUESTION 2 MY SELF THIS MORNING WILL I EVER DO THAT 4 ANOTHER MAN IN MY LIFE? -->
I SAID yes nothing wrong with showing affection and taking care of your man ., is up to them if they will appreciate it or not .,
I DID IT and will do it again because I do it from the heart not to get nothing in return ., even tho sucks 4 them not 2 acknowledge all the extra miles the other one is always putting into a relationship ;(
this poem says everything about how my marriage was-->
Cant you see the tears trapped behind my eyes?
Cant you feel my anger burning the air or notice my smile has gone?
Must I explode in furious, raging volume and my patience die?
Or collapse in a flood of sorrow before you ask, whats wrong?
Will you force me to hurt myself or someone else before Im noticed?
Im left standing alone in a prison of frosted glass, hopeless.
Dont you hear words within words, as my once bright voice fades to black?
Doesnt my cold, empty tone drown your ears in a shivering flood?
Do I need to shock you awake with freezing ice down your back?
Or spell out words of loneliness in my own blood?
Must I be that desperate for attention before you ask why?
Behind this glass Im a silent blur to all who pass by.
Didnt I wipe enough tears from your face?
Did I not calm your hate with kindness and love?
When did I make you shout and scream into empty space?
Or let you cry alone, just you, and the dark clouds above?
When I asked, whats wrong? did you feel ignored and lonely?
Youre free to see a beautiful endless world of things, but not me?
Didnt I let you tell me the story of your troubled soul?
Did I not warm your frozen heart and drag you from the dirt?
Did I turn my back on you when your hands were numb from the cold?
Did you need to bleed to make me see that you were hurt?
Were you begging for my ear before I listened to what you said?
Youre free to be alive, but would you notice if these frosted walls glowed red?
I bet u will not even notice me when i'm DEAD! ;'